Wondering....

Last night Chris finished his autobiography, which means we are all ready to mail in our application to our agency. Wow. And of course, Joey was up a few times last night, and Carmela is having a very rough few weeks lately. I'd be lying if I said I didn't say "am I nuts?" at least ten times this morning already LOL. Yet, getting Carmela ready to go to school and seeing her get on the school bus this morning, and watching Joey play his guitar and dancing around right now, just reminds me how blessed I am and how lucky I am to have this option of international adoption.

As we get ready to mail off our application, I can't help but wonder if there is a woman right now pregnant in Korea who is pondering adoption. I can't help but wonder how depressed she must feel, how sad and I pray that she is not all alone in her thoughts. I pray that she has a warm bed to lay down at night, and some food to eat. I pray that she has someone to talk to about her feelings at this difficult time. It is likely that I will never meet this woman, yet I wonder about her a lot throughout my day. I hope she feels at peace with her decision, and I hope she knows that her child will be extremely loved by me and his or her family.

One a sidenote, we started sharing our news with our friends and family, and we are so happy to have gotten the comments we have gotten so far. Our family and friends have been so supportive and we appreciate that more than they know. I do realize that international adoption can be out of a lot of people's comfort zones, and the fact that it is being met with such positivity I think shows a lot of the support we will be surrounded by in life.

I must share some confusion my neice and nephew are going through. Gianna and Dominick are 8 and 6 so when I shared the news with Gianna I was careful with my words. I wanted her to know that her new cousin wouldn't look like us, but I didn't want to go in too much detail that I scared her. Well apparently, I didn't say it well enough, because when she asked my sister exactly what the baby would look like, and my sister said "like your friend, Audrey"...Gianna was very relieved. She said that I told her the baby wouldn't look like us and I think she thought I meant like an alien or something LOL! Gianna and Dominick are both really excited, its so cute to see.

Carmela and Joey don't quite get it. They are so excited over our upcoming trip to Disney, that a sibling is taking back seat to that trip LOL. In all fairness, I'm trying to mention it so they pick up on it, but I am not talking about it much just yet. I want them to get used to the idea and then I'll have the "talk" with them. Carmela and Joey have both said they want a sister, but I have reminded them that we do not have a choice in the matter, and that we will be blessed with what we get! Just like if the baby grew in mommy's belly!

So this afternoon (after my 3:15 doctor appointment), I am running to the post office to officially mail off our application and paperwork. We are hoping to get the homestudy done quickly, but it will be in our agency's hands by then!

Off to play with my little boy now....